We've experienced tons of emotions in the past few months - excitement to live in a new place, sadness at leaving our community here, fear of finding new friends and figuring out how to do life all over again, panic at the thought of finding a house, and denial that it is all really happening. Sometimes it all is so overwhelming that I feel paralyzed.
I want to make the best of the rest of our time here, and that seems to create a lot of pressure. Every day feels like it needs to be spectacular. But then, before the emotions run out of hand, I try to remind myself that each day is enough. I am enough. Our life, even the day to day normal things, is beautiful, and that's what I love about it. Our walks around town. Playing at the park or at the stage. Recovering while baby K naps. These next few weeks hold lots of special things, so it's ok if I need down days to rejuvenate.
Hubby went out to Hawaii to do some training. He looked at some areas that we were interested in living in, and found that our first choice was not going to be good. His commute would be awful. The neighborhoods were sketchy in the areas that we can afford. He looked at an area I had visited 6 years ago (!) and I thought it was nice then. Hubby loved the area. The commute is good. It's a very walking-friendly area, and a friend from college had lived there for 4 years, and now had a steal of a rental available. He checked out my friend's house, and loved it. We signed the lease this week and now have a house!
With all of the transitions that we'll be making in the next few weeks, we are SO glad to have a house! Now when we are waiting for our things and car to arrive, we can spend time relaxing on island instead of panicking about where we'll live, hauling the kids out to see tons of properties, figuring out various commutes... we can just enjoy. Spend time as a family. Relax. Explore our new island. Actually have a vacation of our own!
Our next few weeks are full of goodbyes. I'm really not looking forward to saying goodbye to all of these meaningful people and places. I try to remind myself of what I'm saying hello to - a designated parking spot, our snow shovel, cable tv, more than one bathroom, a beach 1.5 miles away from our house, a cute town within walking distance.
